I am so glad you dropped by my page! You may have found your way through my podcasts, social media, books or random internet search. However you got here I know it is for a reason. We serve a big God who doesn’t make mistakes, there are no coincidences. YOU are deeply loved by the God of the universe. YOU are uniquely created for a purpose. Those stirrings and desires in your heart are not a mistake.

The battles you have fought are not in vein. The heart-wrenching pain you have experienced will not be wasted. God will make beauty out of your ashes. My whole purpose of creating podcasts, books, speeches,etc, is to let my pain be turned into beauty. To let Jesus shine through my broken pieces.

I never expected to be a widow at age 41. I didn’t expect to ever be a single mom. As a young girl, all I wanted in life was to get married and become a mom. I dreamed of my fairytale wedding and beautiful babies. God did grant me those things. I had the wedding and the babies…but I also got the shocking and devastating news just a few months into my marriage that my precious husband Luke at age 26 had a very rare bone cancer. I have to be honest, I was young, angry, disapointed and shattered. It changed the direction of my life.

It would take a whole book to explain it all ( which I did write 🙂 but the short version is, he had his leg amputated at age 26 and the cancer was gone for 14 years. He had many health complications in that time but always pushed through. Then we got the news that the cancer was back, and this time in his lungs. This time it was not only my world that was shattered but the lives of my kids. We tried treatment but were told it was terminal. Terminal- what a horrible word. We prayed for a miracle EVERY SINGLE DAY. We never gave up hope. My Luke pushed through incredible pain to be with us. We went to Disneyland, we went to University of Oregon Football Games (his favorite team), we made the most of every day. Watching him fade away physically and emotionally was the hardest thing I have ever witnessed. Jesus did a miracle on May 23, 2020, and healed Luke in heaven. I thought I knew pain until that moment. After I watched my soulmate take his last breath I THEN knew what true pain was.

It’s been over 2 years now and it has been a rollercoaster as myself and my kids learned to live without Luke. Some days were impossibly hard but God always came through and comforted us when we needed it most. He is our anchor, our refuge, our hope. Jesus has never left us and has been so good to us in so many ways. He promises to be close to the broken-hearted and crushed in spirit and I can testify that is so true.

Thank you for visiting my page and I pray that whatever you are going through that you will find comfort and peace from the one true healer and saviour.


Michelle Bader